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It’s a great TV Show and pretty good at adapting the books, but I’ve been hearing a lot about Benedict Cumberbatch being the “best” Sherlock Holmes? I have one thing to say to that:
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This is something I always remind myself of when I feel lost, when I feel like there’s nothing worth doing or when I just can’t care about anything. Be kind.
Recently I’ve had a lot of changes go through my personal life, I’ve had a lot going on and I’ve felt enormous amounts of pressure from so many sides that I can’t breathe. Instead of going into all of that and boring everyone, I just want to talk about one aspect; and that is the direction of my life. Whenever I’ve felt like things haven’t gone my way, when my plans never worked out and I’m lost, I just remember something Conan O’Brien once said:
Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get, but if you work really hard, and you’re kind, amazing things will happen. I’m telling you, amazing things will happen.
Those words have always stuck with me. Especially when he says to “be kind”. I never thought about it that way before. You can word as hard you can and drag yourself away until there is nothing left, just like what I’ve been doing for myself. But always remember: there is always someone else there, people are always around you, and you need to be kind to them, you need to be kind to the work you do and take care of what needs to be done with a good heart. I think that’s important, I think it’s important to have a good, clear heart that knows that even though you’re confused right now and things will seem meaningless, at least you know that you’re doing the right thing.
I see a lot of people, including myself, who have just lost faith. Be it in people, friends, family or religion. No matter what that is, I know for a fact that no one else would want to wish those kind emotions on anyone else. When people tell me that they have no faith or they just don’t care anymore, I feel helpless. But then I remember something I’ve always tried to live my life by: if I can’t have any hope in anything, I may as well them hope for something. I want people to have faith in people, even it’s by doing small gestures, or being kind to a stranger. You never know where it mind lead to.
We all need to have that hope that one day things will be better and that everything we’ve worked so hard for pays off. But always remember: Be kind.
I was born in the wrong era. I should have been born when pirates were still sailing the seas and I could have my own ship and sail the waters and shit.
Or live a few hundred years from now and be in a Firefly/Mass Effect-esque universe and have my own ship in space and take little jobs and have my own crew and fly around and shit.
These days it’s just: get an education, get a degree, get a job, get married to a whore and have whore children so they can have an education, get a job, get married and have whore kids of their own while we look back and wonder why we didn’t do anything with our lives when we had the chance.
I’d like to fly around in space and fight off Reapers or just travel around taking little jobs and seeing things and get into fights and have experience.
I’ll get married and have children and stuff later. I want to do what I feel like doing for now.
I found an old picture of my dad when he was a kid.
He looked like a girl.
This year has been different. This year has done a lot to me physically, mentally and emotionally. I’ve met people who seem to have changed me in ways I never dreamed of and I’ve lost people I never thought I could lose in a million years. I’ve done things I never even thought were possible, and there other things that I regret putting myself through. But if I was completely honest with myself, 2011 has probably been one of the worst years of my life. I say that satistically, seeing as up until September I had nothing but shit in my path and it kept piling up. It was until I was in Italy that I could see beyond the walls of my own depression and realise that everything outside was beautiful. Being thrown back in has put me back into that hole, and 3 months against 9 doesn’t weigh up to me to be something that can change a whole year around.
To those of you who have been and remained my friends throughout my troubles, I thank each and everyone of you; I’m not going to name anyone, but to the people I talk to, to the people I am friends with and the people I want to remain friends with; you know who you are, and I am bloody thankful to you guys are there. I can’t promise my troubled times are over, but I sure am trying my best to stay the right course and trying to do the right thing. Trying to change my life.
People are always looking for something to change their lives, they always expect some sort of miracle to come down in front of them and show them the way forward; most people tend to keep waiting while others decide that miracles only happen in the books and the stories and in the songs they listen to. Some people decide that to make a dream come true…they need to wake up. I sound cliche, I know, but it’s the truth. And I hate people who make new year resolutions that never come into shape, so I won’t bore you guys with that, but I do want to say this: new year or not, if there’s something you want to do, then you go out there and do it. Honest to God, there is nothing stopping you. I have seen people drop everything they have for the chase of a dream and I challenge you find me someone who regrets that decision. Live your life.
People always forget that word: live. Who decided that the way to lead a life was to find a job settle and be happy with that? To not risk anything and have that sense of security because you think you need to be able to provide for a family you don’t even have yet? When that time comes, the time comes, but until then, live your life as if it is your last day.
A new year means something different for everyone. For me, it means nothing, it’s just another day. But for others, it’s a new start, and if you’re going to start something new, make sure you see it through, and not make the same promises each year because you’ll just be filled with regret; like me.
This is your life, guys. Don’t just fade away, leave a story to tell. 2012 could be the opening chapter for something amazing.
The Facebook Timeline is good for one thing: reminding me of what a douche I really am.
